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Avis Johns's avatar

sometimes getting through the day is enough. Be kind to yourself.

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Amanda Hill's avatar

Thank you for being so honest and raw , this is so bloody sad and a hard read and at the minute it's impossible for you to stay away from the trigger called stress. I hope with love and support from your nearest and dearest you can get through the most stressful periods and find a way to manage this illness . I admire you very much as you've always been a very honest man and speaking out about your illness will hopefully help others and make others see it isn't a choice it's not attention seeking it's a cycle that is an illness . Much love to you ❤️

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Caron's avatar

This made me so sad John, I commend you for writing it, maybe that’s a small way forward to finding your peace with it. I wish you so much success with your new business venture and send love x

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Squirrel chaser's avatar

It’s so brave of you to put this out there. Typical of you to be able to use your intelligence to self-reflect and write about your experience so movingly. You’re living sober, now you need to switch the same part of your huge brain which allows you to do that to treat your body with kindness and feel loved for who you are.

I’m not eloquent like you but I do know that you are enough & that you are loved. By Paul, by your mum, by your sisters. I stand by you and your fight for your best life, so will your subscribers.

You can’t stop stress as it always happens but you can try and change your response to it.

Always on your side, Fiona

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Peter Leonard's avatar

Thank you so much for sharing this so honestly. The link between food and mental health is real and challenging for so many people. I am trying to find the right words but not sure there are any. Standing with you in Spirit x

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Sheila Davies's avatar

Thank you for your courage and honesty. I wish there was something I could say that would take this demon away from you, but you already know the reasons why this isn't good for you, and that we, your supporters, love you for who you are, not for your shape. I hope this current bout of illness will pass once you've made it through the stress of setting up your business. Lots of love ❤️

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Caron Lindsay's avatar

I hope that writing this all down has been as helpful for you as I know it will be for others reading it. I don’t have any words of wisdom to offer but send love and good wishes as you find your path through this. It is not a linear path and as you well know you have good and bad days. Being honest with yourself is a big part of recovery and I hope your honesty here moves you further down that path.

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Dougggie's avatar

I hope you find the strength to get through this launch without too much fallout and then find the time for a good specialist therapist who can help you with the emotional and stress management. Those emotions are there to be listened to and acknowledged, but sometimes we let them drive the car instead of dropping them off on the kerb xxx

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Rachel Walters's avatar

Like u say it’s not all you are 🩷 your so brave for writing this, I hope u can see how much courage and kindness u have. Don’t let the demon take u any further. I love following I and am excited for your business journey. Xxx

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Angelika Gorham's avatar

Dearest John - we love you for your courage in being vulnerable and letting us share your struggles. I hope you are reaching out to professionals who may be able to help you fight this demon. We need you in this world. Please love yourself as much as we love you.

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Kelly-Jane M's avatar

Gosh John, that’s really hard going for you. I don’t know the answer, but sending much love. 💖xx

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Vicky Harman's avatar

May today bring you peace and tomorrow bring you hope. And in the light of day may you find comfort in the presence of those who love you so that in time it’s memory can sustain you in the dark.

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Lorraine Stewart's avatar

I to have no words of wisdom but send you lots of love and hope you can stay strong.

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Jeanne Hale's avatar

What a very moving and searingly honest post. I have always admired your courage in speaking about issues that are important but uncomfortable. I wish you well, and I hope that you can find some professional help to manage your condition. You are clearly a sensitive and very intelligent man and I am confident that there will be a therapist somewhere out there who can rescue you, or guide you to save yourself. Sending a hug, useless I know, but well meant. X

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Deborah Hogan's avatar

Hi John OMG thank you for writing this I am a 64 yr old woman who is scared of putting on the weight I lost 20 yrs ago so yes it is still there the thoughts the idea of the damage I am doing to my throat but it was so good to hear I’m not the only one a cake then Pkt of biscuits then here we go again I know stress & tiredness doesn’t help GIVE YOURSELF some ME TIME xxxxxx

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